Just Thinking

The past few weeks, coming back from my amazing time at spring break, I’ve been thinking a lot. Just about me & truly what I see my future being.

It’s almost impossible for me not to think of the next ten minutes, ten hours, ten days or ten year from now. While others think this is overwhelming, I find solace in this. It actually keeps me calm & grounded. When I left Texas a few weeks back. I just knew that my long distance relationship would be this way for the next three years. This scared me at first, but now I realize that IT IS OKAY. honestly I think this is the best thing to happen to my amazin strong man & I. It is difficult, so freaking difficult, not being able to hold his hand or just being held by him.

I feel like this is my chance to really take hold of my individuality. & not having my warm safety blanket. Life handed me this huge lemon, so now, I’ll be makin lemonade for the next three years….seriously I had a dream about a giant lemon. ODD I know. But I’m taking advantage I this hidden opportunity. & making the outcome I want out of it. Every time I’m feeling scared or alone, I just look down at my left hand & see the little sparkle & I feel tons better. “You mustn’t be afraid to sparkle a little brighter darling”-Kirsten.